Best For Katie Prayer
Hey guys! I have a court date schedule for January 9th for custody. Just want to give you an update and ask for some prayers:
As I enter into this next season of waiting, I expect God to do great things in building my heart-character so that I can increase in my capacity to know and hold more of God.
I’ll be fasting Twitter for the next 40 days (which God knows how it is a sacrifice for me) and using the time to draw closer to God. He desires that I seek him as my Portion which is that I seek God Himself and not the blessings or answers to prayers I so desire.
As you know, It has been more than 3 years since I’ve had any direct contact with Katie (not even by phone or FaceTime). It has been a tearful and pain-filled walk for me. In my emotions, it feels like there is so much riding on this date. And that if things don’t break MY way that I’ll be unable to survive it.
It has been my “only if” for many years since my separation started. That means that I have held onto it like “ONLY IF I get to see my daughter again, then my life would be better.” I have held onto this with clenched fists and have not FULLY surrendered it to God. That’s not how God wants me to walk through these next 40 days. He desires that I surrender to Him, seek His face, and make Him the “only if” in my life.
As I draw closer to our Father during this time, please pray that I can release all my anxieties, worries, and fears into His loving, just, and wise hands. Please pray that the peace of God that transcends all understanding will guard my heart and my mind in Christ Jesus.
Pray that I’ll surrender it all to Him as I pray about a pivotal court decision. Pray that I’ll have compassion for my ex-wife, Jane, and have unfettered connection with Katie despite the lack of contact for so long.
Please pray that I’ll boldly declare that no weapon formed against me will prosper and that every scheme and influence of the enemy will be shattered in Jesus name.
Despite the pain of potential disappointment, please pray that I’ll journey through this season with hope (confident assurance of things unseen). Please pray with me as I ask God to open my spiritual eyes to see the host of angels that are protecting me, those interceding for me, and for my family.
And most importantly, please pray that I’ll be able to give thanks to God and rejoice in all circumstances. Thanks because God has a plan for it all. Thanks for this time of incredible spiritual growth and maturity. Thanks for humbling me and sustaining me even though that I have not seen it, acknowledged it, nor given thanks to Him in the past. It has truly been God’s Sustaining Grace that has carried me this far.
I believe that one finish line is almost here. And after that, a new chapter will be written. One where I can comfort others with the comfort I have received. One that is filled with a fire to see God’s revival. To be a beacon of encouragement to those still suffering. To stop facing inwardly toward my own pains and sorrows but to be passionate about seeing God’s glory fulfilled on this earth.
Please pray that I will live by the Spirit and set my mind on what the Spirit desires. As I walk by the Spirit, help me to be more and more aware of the Holy Spirit walking next to me. As I seek God as my Portion, help me to know that I am God’s portion. That in the same way, I desire Him and Him alone, that God desires me and my heart.
Let me be swept away in His love and grace for me.
Thank you!
